It was Friday the 13th after all and I must admit, even though I am bit superstitious, this was certainly not the time to tempt fate.

I thought I would  just tuck the envelop from the healthy kids healthy weight program.

I knew these certainly were the results from the glucose tolerance test. The results  that would tell us if  the son was pre diabetic or not.

Sunday after church, a prayer and (drum roll please) an “official” unveiling tells us the good news. The glucose tolerance test was normal, so the little guy is not pre diabetic after all, thank you God.

For a moment it seems like the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders, and I was so relieved I must say. Now all we have to worry about is controlling his weight, If we  can get that down then everything is right with the world.

One Instant of pure unadulterated Joy had me in a jovial mood all of yesterday, I was on a good high for once, everything from that moment on seemed to just go right for once. Good news of this magnitude has a way of lifting your spirit and melting all your troubles away, but that was yesterday.

I can  sense the smile on my face before I even awake, today. My morning routine goes down in a  flash, until I look at the meter and everything that was good about IT just disseminates in a cloud of smoke.

My fasting BG by the way is 317

I am feeling “Normal”,However, No high symptoms, no shivers, no thirst, not running to the bathroom every 5 minutes or any of the other diabetes signs and then it hits me like a bag of bricks.

This is the Normal Me, the every day me, the guy I see when I look into the mirror, that guy from yesterday, the guy who was on cloud nine was a complete stranger.

I am trying with all my might to replicate that guy, but like a fist full of sand, the harder I try to hold on, the more he slips through my fingers.

I truly want to escape this daily grind that is Diabetes If only for a moment but I know yesterday is gone and the psychological toll that this disease has borne on me is greater than any physical scars ever will  for such are the effects of diabetes.

Can you honestly remember as a diabetic, the last time  you had a feeling of pure uplifting Joy and how long were you able to hold onto that feeling before the effects of diabetes came bursting in?

Update: Aug 17 2010

Some facts on diabetes and depression thanks to D- blogger extraordinaire  David Mendosa

“Diabetes and depression go together. Research research found that 19 percent of people with type 2 diabetes probably suffer from major depression and an additional two-thirds of us have at least some depressive symptoms. People with diabetes are twice as likely to be depressed as other people.”