Am having one of those vent  moments right now and I cant think  straight I am so mad, last week I was at the dentist having an extraction and when she took my blood pressure it was 140/90 I was a bit worried but made a note to talk to my doctor, he had me come in just to bee on the safe side and when he checked, I was back to normal now today I was going to see a friend at the hospital and when I got there, he was having his BP taken so I convinced the nurse to take mine just for giggles but lo and behold, I am back to the 140/90 again.

I am so mad I could spit, I am mad at my doctor, mad at myself, mad at this diabetes and just mad at the world period….

1. It seems diabetes is defining who I am as a person, people know me more as the diabetic than even as Ronnie and it pisses me off sometimes

2. I have a genuine fear of waking up from my sleep and am missing a leg or a hand

3. Having to stop what am doing to check my blood sugar levels

4. Seeing the look in my sons eye everytime knowing he might get the disease

5. Having to deal with my Phobia of needles everytime I have to draw blood

6.  Giving up on my mr. Olympia dreams

7. Going to bed thinking what if my sugar’s drop too low in the night and I dont wake up

8. Diet Dr. Pepper does not taste like regular Dr. Pepper

9. Carb Counting

10. My diabetes emergency kit goes everywhere with me

11. Having to explain why I dont eat that and why I dont drink that

12. People’s ignorance to diabetes

13. Why I am a balding, 300 + pounds, middle aged single man with no kids